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I have noticed people who lie are sad, pathetic people i do not understand why they dont have the balls to just come clean or be honest but instead they lie thinking that they are getting away with whatever it is they are lieing about please.. and another thing about liars i have also noticed that most liars claim to hate people who lie but its that same person claiming this who also lies so are they saying they hate themselves ok lets get real i think they need to get a grip look in the mirror and grow up nothings worth lieing about unless your a spineless bitch and are scared of the people you lie to then i geuss for you its ok since you cant stick up for yourself or have the honor and the courage and the balls to be honest....

sorry just me voicing my opinon on liars i have read some interesting things and seem some interesting things so im just voicing myself

sometimes i feel like barbie..... i feel fake...

but not only do i feel it i act it .. and i hate that

if i could change it and still be happy i would but i feel that i cant. i remember what i used to be like and i have noticed that i am no longer that person anymore im something else that isnt me and i dont know how or why it happened or why i have choosen to continue it but i do know that im done with it im done being fake and im done smiling and nodding from now on if i got something to say im going to voice it i dont give a fuck im tiered of feeling walked on by bitches an assholes im not a door mat i am a real person and i like everyone else feel too so from now on people are going to know what i feel like it or not i dont care

I'm not a perfect person

as many things I wish I didn't do

but I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

and so I have to say before I go

that I just want you to know



I've found a reason for me

to change who I used to be

a reason to start over new

and the reason is you



I'm sorry that I hurt you

it's something I must live with everyday

and all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

and be the one who catches all your tears

that's why I need you to hear



I've found a resaon for me

to change who I used to be

a reason to start over new

and the reason is you

and the reason is you

and the reason is you

and the reason is you



I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

and so I have to say before I go

that I just want you to know



I've found a reason for me

to change who I used to be

a reason to start over new

and the reason is you



I've found a reason to show

a side of me you didn't know

a reason for all that I do

and the reason is you





*i know im not perfect but please be patient with me give me the chance to give you everything i have ... i think im ready to give it my all and all i ask is for you to be patient i havent had feeling like this for another in a really long time im sorry im not everything you want me to be or expect but give me the chance to show you all i can be when i really love someone and i think im ready to give you everything i have in me to give*.... i love you and i want to be with you . you said that there wasnt anything we couldnt do as long as we'er together well i took that to heart and we are together and i belive we have what it takes to make it. dont give up on me because i never will on you

wow today must not be a good day for both my mate and my roommate i dont know what bothers my mate all i know is he says i cant fix it and then my roommate is haveing money troubles and work troubles damn i dont know what to do i know ill try to make my man feel as good as i can and the other i dont know what to tell him but hes working his own out but my mate doesnt always talk about the things that bother him but i still dont like to see him hurting or upset or anything like that but anyhoo i jsut wish i could help......

things rush in and out of my head all day and all night i am constently thinking my mind is never at rest i go to sleep either crying or angry or hurting i dont what i should do with all that is on my mind i wish i could make it go away but i cant nothing seems to work and nothing seems to help i love my son and my man and im doing all i can to make a good life for us but i feel that its never good enough and that i cant do it right many times i have thought about giving up but then they would win and i would have to listen to all the shit they have to say so i choose to stay and fight for my family and for what i want and for what i belive in but then again am i fighting a losing battle because the way i feel now i think i am i dont belive that i can possibley hurt anymore than i do i try day by day to smile and to be happy but i am not again i have too much on my mind and nowhere to put it all for once i have what i want i have a family of my own and almost a life that is mine but yet shit still seems to pile up and build and get me stressed and i am so lost and dont know what i should do i have heard things said and am not sure if they are true and the things that hurt me are always on my mind i cant not think about them i jsut hate this unhappy feeling and i just want shit to get straightend out for wonce so i can go on with my family and our life and put this shit behind us... this is not what i wanted for my son but i am doing my best to make the best out of it but still i feel like its not good enough and no matter what i do it will never be good enough